Infertility--One word with lots of meaning

Infertility is loss.  It is loss at the core.

Loss of DREAMS

Loss of FAMILY

Loss of VISION

Loss of how I always thought it would be...

This has been such a hard season for me lately.  I would say the last 6 months have been the hardest out of the 26 months of infertility round 2.  It doesn't help that it became obvious to me that we weren't pregnant on the week of every holiday (Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine's Day and now Easter).  And, I should be right on course for Mother's Day.

This is such a downer post.  I am sorry about that.  I want to be real and this IS real...this is real down in the dumps could barely pull myself up this week post.

Tomorrow is a new day and a new dream as we start the calendar over....again.

The months are few though.  The end is near.

Very near